THE SILENT BATTLE: SLEEPLESS NIGHTS AND WEIGHT OF REPEATED FAILURE.

  1. "I Tried Again" I lit the lamp when the world went to sleep, Buried in books, the silence ran deep. Each page a step, each night a war, I gave it my all—then gave even more. My hands shook, my eyes turned red, With every law and number I fed. Mock tests, revisions, a calendar marked, I fought with focus, fully embarked. I saw the result, and silence screamed, The hopes I had… the dreams I dreamed. Failure struck not once but twice, Cold and sharp like shattered ice. I cried in corners, I broke in bed, A thousand doubts danced in my head. Am I enough? Should I let go? Questions whispered soft and low. But still I rose, I faced the sun, Not because I’d already won— But because quitting felt like defeat, And courage stood where success had beat. This is my story, rough but true, Of falling down… and standing too. 2. "You Are Not Alone" You wake up again before the dawn, Another night of sleep is gone. You hold the pen, your fingers sore...

  The Silent Battle: My Autobiography of Sleepless Nights and Repeated Failure There was a time I believed that hard work was the ultimate answer. That if you give your hundred percent, the world has no choice but to give in. I was one of those students who didn’t just dream—I worked relentlessly toward it. The dream was to become a Chartered Accountant. The journey, I soon learned, would be more than just about exams and books. It would test every inch of my spirit. I still remember the day I registered for the CA course. There was a fire in my eyes and a vision in my mind. I knew it was a tough course. Everyone around me had their warnings: “It’s not for everyone,” “Only a few make it,” they’d say. But I wasn’t discouraged. If anything, it only made me more determined. I knew what I was signing up for—or so I thought. My first attempt was filled with a mix of anxiety and excitement. I had studied hard, followed the plan, ticked every topic, and revised as much as I could. Whe...

  Biography: The Silent Battle – A CA Student’s Journey Through Sleepless Nights and Repeated Failure Jai Madan  is a determined and resilient Chartered Accountancy student whose journey reflects not only academic ambition but deep emotional courage. With dreams of becoming a Chartered Accountant rooted in passion and hard work, [Name] began the CA journey with fierce dedication and high hopes. But along the way came the kind of trials that test a person’s character more than their intellect. After months of preparation and sacrifice, Jai faced failure in the first attempt. Rather than be defeated, it became fuel—a stepping stone for a stronger, more focused comeback. The second attempt was different. This time, every chapter was revised, every concept drilled, and every ounce of energy was poured into the pursuit of success. Days blurred into nights, sleep was replaced with revision, and social life became a distant memory. But despite it all, the second result brought wit...

  The Silent Battle The room was quiet, except for the ticking of the clock and the rustle of pages turning. Arjun sat at his desk, highlighters scattered, books open, eyes heavy. Another sleepless night. Another round of revisions. He had been here before—once, already. But this time, it had to be different. He was a CA student, chasing a dream carved in numbers, law, and relentless hours of study. His first attempt had ended in failure. Painful, yes—but not devastating. He picked himself up quickly, thinking, “Next time, I’ll win.” So he gave it everything. No festivals, no birthdays, no social media. His world shrank to a desk and a clock. Every day was a test. Every night, a sacrifice. And then the day came. The result. Failed. Again. This time, something cracked. He stared at the screen in disbelief. The silence around him felt louder than ever. He hadn’t just lost an exam—he had lost faith. The confidence, the energy, the fire—all gone in an instant. The hardest part w...

 ABOUT ME   Hi, I'm a CA student—just like many others, chasing one of the toughest dreams in the country. But behind the textbooks, test series, and attempts, there's a story not many talk about: the silent battle of failure, self-doubt, and perseverance. I’ve appeared for the CA exams twice. Both times, I gave it my all. Especially in my second attempt—I truly believed I would make it. I studied late into the night, sacrificed sleep, comfort, and even moments of joy, thinking it would all be worth it. But when the result came, I failed again. That moment broke something inside me. Not because I didn't study hard enough—but because I did , and still didn’t succeed. It made me question everything—my capabilities, my path, and my future. This blog is not about success stories you read on social media. This is about the in-between —the heartbreaks, the tears no one sees, the nights filled with anxiety, and the strength it takes just to try again. I’m writing to share my jou...